I applied and got assigned a new guy to support. Go to SOLDIER'S ANGELS and do this...it's for a great reason and it feels good doing it...even if the post office charges too much.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!!

posted by Wanting at 11:13 AM

 
...certain things have been bothering me lately......

...why is it that on some of the blogs I've visited it's like some kind of special club, and even though you are able to post, no one seems to care. No one acknowledges you. I remember reading one guy's blog...he was very good, but after he actually posted about how once he sees mistakes in spelling or proper word etiquette, he won't read them anymore...

...I don't read him anymore.

...now I won't pretend my blog is something special, it's actually pretty boring. I have met some good people here. It's probably not proper word ettiquette to have those three dots (hey...I can call 'em that..it's my blog) before each paragraph, but that's what I do. My English teacher wouldn't approve, but I doubt he's reading this.

...with everything this country (and the rest of the world) has gone through, I just don't understand why there's still so much crap in the world.

...religions use God to hurt others, pushing their beliefs and rediculous bullshit about the way a person lives...in history there were the inquisitions, wiping out a significant number of the Native Americans (read about the Trail Of Tears and both incidences at Wounded Knee), burning people at the stake over witchcraft, slavery, gay bashing in the same sentences as "God loves everyone" and "love thy neighbor," and don't forget the one that says (we're told) that it's good to kill others, and get your kids to do it for you by strapping a bomb to their chest.

...hypocrisy should be considered a felony.

...I didn't care much for high school because of all the clics. I was never one of the popular ones, and I really didn't enjoy how certain ones made me feel bad about myself. Sometimes it seems like high school all over again.

...I enjoy reading different blogs. It makes the world around me a little bigger, and it's very interesting to read how others live, what they do in their lives. But I hate that feeling of being unwelcome. I hate the fact that some people use these diaries as a way to use others. I've been lucky that, as far as I can tell, no one like that has come here (no one at all lately), but then again, my friends are pretty cool.

...and if I mispelled anything, sorry...mi splck dont wok...
posted by Wanting at 3:00 AM

 
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
posted by Wanting at 11:32 AM

 
Commercials I like to watch...

...the Hall's cough drops where the three pigs are in the brick house (guys with make-up) and the bad wolf is outside with a cough. He takes a cough drop, crunches it with his teeth, then takes a deep breath and....you know the rest of the story.

...Target makes good ones, although they have an uncaring attitude when it comes to charities.

...the Boston and the Pug that have flea problems...too cute.

...the Chevy commercial where an empty tailer used to haul new vehicles is speeding down the highway, and all these new Chevys catch up to it and drive up the ramp as it's moving. The coolest thing was, the last vehicle (I don't remember which one) caught up, slid around and backed up onto the trailer while it was moving.

...the Sci Fi channel has some great ones...EXCEPT for the magician and the balloon dog...anyone who's seen that one...a bit too much.

...the two magpies that trick a guy into walking into his sliding glass door...I believe it's for Windex.

...Walmart has one with Garth Brooks...playing with the toys...and ends up trading hats with Santa.

...the cows from California (a cheese commercial) that wake to a rooster crowing, discuss getting up, and one tells the other to hit the snooze...next you see the rooster hitting a steel drum outside the barn.
posted by Wanting at 9:28 PM

 
Commercials that annoy me...

...the Burger King king...one of the scariest things I've ever seen...and to think he plays football...

...Radio Shack/Verizon, where people sit in a chair and tell someone the gifts they want...the girl who is obviously a spoiled bitch...with her whipped boyfriend in tow...telling her mom that she wants this phone and she should get her for her or else she will tell dad, cause she's daddy's little girl...

...Victoria's Secret, with all the models who weigh 90 pounds slinking around and pouting in their underwear (yeah, yeah...lingerie...I know)...how about some guys that weigh 200 pounds and built like just about every woman's dream lover, showing off their underwear (boxers look good, but there are also those that look like bvds, then have a partial thigh like boxers...hugging...everything)...strutting around and being all manly men. But of course, we can't have that, can we?

...Girls Gone Wild video/dvd collections...do you guys really buy that shit? It's like all women (oh, wait...I should rephrase that..these definately aren't women, unless you consider a bimbo who will flash anyone with a camera and make out with her college roommate a woman) are bimbos...which is no more true than all men are dicks...although they found a bunch of them in these, didn't they?

...any feminne product commercial...paricularly the deouche commercials...trust me...if we ain't feeling fresh, we know where to go. So how about a jock itch commercial? Some manly men discussing how they feel so scratchy down there...

...any commercial that is shown twice in a row...I assume to make it stand out...well, it worked...it stands out...as being a waste of my time. It makes me not want to buy anything from them...

...newscasters that announce news for later...like a teaser...especially when it's really bad news...that seems a bit too morbid for me...

...the announcements that tell of the Bradley basketball game being played "this Wednesday night at 7!!" which means no Law and Order...how about you guys go somewhere else, maybe on a night when nothing good is on...I'm tired of missing one of the few shows I get to watch...
posted by Wanting at 8:26 AM

 
PEOPLE ARE SUCH DICKS....

December 08, 2005•Insult to Injury First things first: The issue that's getting so much attention — and rightfully so — is the hate letter written to PFC Joshua Sparling.

In case you missed the show, Josh was wounded in Iraq on November 20, and by the time he arrived at Walter Reed Medical Center he was almost immediately carted in for surgery. With a down moment he opened up a card which — on the surface — seemed like a patriotic "get well soon" kids' note, only to open and see it said this verbatim:

Dear Soldier, Have a great time into he war and have a great time dieing in the war from Solider Miguel P.S. DIE.

This was the only card on his wall. As much pain as he is in he insisted on leaving the card up and in view. He, by the way, is proud of his service...misses his buddies and wants to go back and fight — as did everyone I met last Friday.

Please write him and his fellow wounded war fightersChristmas/holiday/get well cards to let them know that Green Day and this sadist does not represent the America public.



posted by Wanting at 9:48 AM

 
...so if anyone still reads here...go to Jack's blog and read the December 9th post about the guy who was shot on the plane (he was bi-polar) and how journalists are so responsible in their reporting. He makes some very good points, and I had a few of my own...go read it.
posted by Wanting at 2:00 PM

 
...once again a big corporation has made itself gobs of money at the expense of someone.

...seems Troy and his employees were notified last week that their last day will be tomorrow. Supposedly they bought another company (HV) but, this other company gets to stay open, and Troy's store closes.

...what is it about these big corporations that feel they need to screw over their own? My old company that I used to work for, Waldenbooks, did the same to theirs.

...first off, you rich dicks in the corner office need to get off your dead asses and actually work in the stores. I think this should be anywhere...whether it's retail, food service, or whatever. TRY to remember that if it wasn't for these employees, you would not be making any money. They do all the dirty work and you get all the credit...plus bonuses.

...try not to be such snobs...stop talking down to people...you ain't as great as you think. Do you even know how to run a store? Can you deal with people that aren't quite the way you expect? You assholes are so quick to bitch when something goes wrong, try saying something nice when something goes well.

...how about you get rid of the dead beats, the lazy asses (sort of like you maybe?)
that will not do as they were told they should do. It's hard enough trying to follow your stupid plans for displays and such, it doesn't help when you just don't see what's really going on.

...VERY IMPORTANT: STOP HIRING YOUR SONS/DAUGHTERS/EXES!!

1) your relatives don't work that hard

2) you pay them way too much...to do nothing. Your REAL employees are not stupid, so stop treating them like they are

3) if caught spying, something bad will happen

(it's good to be a peon...)
posted by Wanting at 9:26 PM

 

Do NOT go here...these a#&%$()*s just closed a store around here, gave their employees a WEEK'S notice, and will be keeping the tiny, no room, employees-are-rude store with a busy intersection out front. Just in time for Christmas. 
posted by Wanting at 9:25 PM

 
...just in case someone is actually reading this (I feel like Burgess Meredith in the Twilight Zone...everyone is gone and all he has is books), go say hi to Lewis...let him know he's thought of today. He needs his friends.
posted by Wanting at 3:45 PM

 
ONE MORE THING...

...Animal Planet has a show on Saturday night, 8/7 CST...showing reunions with owners and their pets. I know I'll be balling like a baby, but I will definately watch this. Don't let me be the only one...
posted by Wanting at 6:17 PM

 
...I once watched a program (after 9/11) about rescue dogs. One set of profiles they did was on the dogs that were used to find bodies among the rubble of the twin towers. These dogs would find people, sometimes still alive, but mostly those that perished. Both the owners and the animals worked day and night, pretty much exhausted after long, grueling hours.

...One owner that was interviewed talked of his rottweiler, who was a great rescue dog...found many people, both alive and dead, during his career as a cadaver dog. He spoke of how, after the time at the towers, his dog was listless...he almost seemed depressed. He wouldn't eat, and didn't seem to want to do anything anymore. He was afraid that maybe, with all the dust and what was in it, his dog was sick.

(A friend of mine who lives out there once told me that all that shit that was released into the air when the towers were destroyed will probably show up years later as cancer and other bad things. Even though he and his friends knew they were being exposed, they still went down to help, like many others)

...Dogs, unfortunately, can develop a lot of human diseases like cancer. So you can imagine what this man thought was happening with his friend. On further observation, the owner was relieved to find out his dog wasn't sick, at least not physically.

...On further observation, it was discovered the rott was covered in brown dirt...which makes sense after what he'd been doing.

...On further observation, it was discovered that it wasn't dirt he was covered in, it was dried blood. From head to toe, dried blood from all the bodies he'd found in the debris.

...After a long, cleansing bath, the dog seemed to bounce back to normal. He was eating, and seemd to be happy again.

...Some people think this is silly, but it was agreed upon by everyone, that the rottweiler had been depressed...saddened...physically and emotionally affected by all of this. I for one agree that that can happen.
posted by Wanting at 5:55 PM

 

...a cadaver dog...used to find you-know-what.. 
posted by Wanting at 5:53 PM

 

I wanna go..I wanna go and see the cowboys.. 
posted by Wanting at 7:17 PM

 
...alllllright...enough of the cute dog pictures. Must I keep rubbing it in? Well, yes, I do, it's my blog, and having already established the fact that it will never be up there with the great ones, I can do anything I damn well please, because people, it don't get any worse than this.

...besides, at least I didn't create a blog that is totally devoted to Sin. I've come across some blogs that parents have created to coincide with everything, and I mean...everything. I for one would never post my kid's pictures up anywhere. Too many weirdos.

...speaking of...I went to my doctor the other day (gyno/obstetrics) and, as usual, all the magazines were for parents and women. A parent I am not. A woman...well...yeah...but that doesn't mean I want the latest casserole recipes and 10 ways to light that fire at home (hey...I'm covered there). I want People or Entertainment Weekly, maybe some Outdoor Life or Newsweek.

...I haven't heard from my Marine in a while. Everytime you hear that someone else has been killed, you get a little nervous about it. I don't even know if he's told his family about me. If something happens to him, I'd most likely never know. To think they just allowed kids over 18 to be able to get a tattoo. Like they had to argue the point. Here's a gun...go shoot it...but you can't drink til you're 21.

...is it me, or are there a LOT of people of authority getting into trouble lately? Here at the county jail, one of the officers was screwing a woman who was in jail. They found out about it. The jail is here in Pekin. Another mark on our town. Of course, you can't beat the meth lab rep...the we-hate-color rep (that's improved, tho), the snob rep (still going strong), and the government officals who like to gamble on the boat...a LOT....drink...in the bar...and make up stupid laws for more money, build rediculous buildings for more money, can't have a children's fun place to go probably because it costs money...pretty much typical politicians.

I hope everyone here has a great holiday. Sorry I rambled. I'm just not talented that way.
posted by Wanting at 10:10 PM

 

THIS is the one I wanted to put up...and thanks to Buffalo I got it. Now if you don't love dogs after this, you need to leave.. 
posted by Wanting at 3:41 PM

 

...can you believe this is play time? 
posted by Wanting at 5:02 PM

 

...here he is again..first day out of the yard... 
posted by Wanting at 4:59 PM

 

...here's my baby...Sin 
posted by Wanting at 4:58 PM

 
...I don't want to offend anyone, so don't take this personally.

...could someone please tell me what in the world a leaf blower is for?

....and don't say it's for blowing leaves...I got that much.

...so people actually spend money on this motor with a handle that blows everything all over...basically just pushes it into someone else's yard, or out in the street.

...I may be wrong, but isn't that the same as me raking all my leaves into the street or the neighbor's yard?

...and if the wind picks up..



DERR...
posted by Wanting at 10:46 PM

 
...well now I feel bad.

...Jack has set up a way to help injured troops thru donations...you need to go to his site and read up on it. It's for something worthy and necessary, and I think it will do some good. Please check it out.

...however, I can't afford it at the moment. There are people who are donating a lot (to me it's a lot) of money, and for some reason I'm worried how he thinks of me.
No idea why...I doubt he comes here much, if at all. But I've come to respect him thru his writing.

...I have my charities...I also have my doctors' bills, the house here and other stuff. I have three different Marines I'm sending stuff to. I try and be different every time. I don't want to keep sending q-tips and eye wash. I try to send fun stuff along with necessities. I'd love to splurge and send a really nice game (it's what they asked for), but they are expensive. I don't have a husband, and I certainly don't have a significant other here anymore.

...so now I feel like a shit. But anyone who knows me also knows I help whenever I can. It's like the ending in Schindler's List. He saved hundreds of Jews by puting them on a list to work...and in the end, he realizes he could have saved more if he picked more. But he couldn't save everyone.

...this fucking war...sick children...people being cruel to one another and animals. Lots of people need money and support.

So good luck Jack. I'm sure you'll have lots of people to help you. I'm sorry it wasn't me.
posted by Wanting at 7:02 PM

 
a good reason I'm glad I don't have children....

.....three students from Pekin High were killed in a crash on Red Shale Hill Road a few weeks ago. Apparently the driver had just gotten his license, and rumor has it they were doing over 90 AND took a picture of the speedomoter and text messaged it to a friend from a cell phone. The passenger side is the side that hit the tree first.

.....two other students from Pekin High were killed about a week or so ago when they hit each other on their dirt bikes. They were riding without helments, no lights, and it was dark outside.

.....a girl in Peoria (can't remember what school she was at) was found dead in her car, which was folded almost in half, when it hit a tree (I believe).

.....the college student from ISU that disappeared...was found several days later in a burned out chicken coop in Mississippi...her car was found in Atlanta, Georgia.

.....so what's going on? No common sense anymore? Were those kids that ignorant? I'd be so afraid mine would turn out that stupid.
.....as for the girl in Mississippi, when they find who did it, let the parents and friends at him with baseball bats. Drastic? Maybe, but too many people are killing too many people. Defense is one thing, but just to kill someone?
.....that's why I have so many animals here. Maybe we shouldn't make fun of that cat lady down the street. She may be onto something.
posted by Wanting at 11:33 PM

 
...no I haven't been here in a while, and please don't lie and tell me how much you missed me...my posts are so informative and outstanding, 60 MINUTES should call me anytime now.

...I hope everyone is doing well...all those in Florida and Texas and anywhere near a hurricane, especially. After all that, our tornados here don't seem so bad, altho I bet Nikki would disagree with me.

...so I noticed some annoying things lately while watching movies...apparently the movie makers in Hollywood think that we are stupid...what do ya'll think of these...

.......several times I've seen where someone opens a hotel room door from the OUTSIDE without a key...someone please tell me where THAT'S ever happened?

.......it's in the Arctic, and this woman is standing there with no coat and she ISN'T cold.

........(this is for any of you ALIEN fans)...it takes longer than 15 minutes to go from egg to host to chest burster.

........let's not forget the dumb bimbo going to the basement (scantily clad and big, um....as Badandy puts it, puppies ) asking the deranged killer if he's there.

........it's completely quiet, except for the music that was edited into the movie for effect, and the person in the room (or wherever they may be) can't hear that sudden sound, but we do.

........it's common sense to know that, if you've just been chased and nearly run over by some crazy in an old truck, and it's the middle of nowhere, that you really shouldn't park on the side of the road and discuss your options...move your ass.

....and, of course...SHOOT THE FUCKER!!!

posted by Wanting at 9:13 AM

 
...I haven't done this in a long time...but it being Sunday when all the hypocrites are more obvious...

...if you can't teach your kids manners, then don't breed.

...if you have no manners you're kids won't either...so don't breed.

...if you don't become pregnant after a million tries, but after taking fertility drugs you "miraculosly" become pregnant with sextuplets, it's NOT a miracle, dumbass. It's the fertility drugs. And if you can't support that many kids, maybe you shouldn't have spent it on fertility drugs. Try adoption.

...if I'm at a four way stop and you come to the same four way stop on the right or the left AFTER me, I GO FIRST.

...don't leave any living thing in the car in hot weather. Also, don't leave any living thing in a garage, in the sun, or with someone who doesn't know how to take care of anything.

...don't be arrogant...you ain't THAT good.

...don't be selfish...you probably don't deserve it.

...know your manners, or stay home.

...support our troops, no matter what. Don't make them feel bad because you don't like what's going on. I highly doubt they do, either.
posted by Wanting at 2:53 PM

 
It's official! Sin's full given legal name is....


DARNELL'S SINFUL CHOCOLATE


posted by Wanting at 4:11 PM

 
Conversation with Sin today....

me: "Hey, Sin....I have some toys I bought for you..."

Sin:

me: "C'mon, come and get your toys..."

Sin:

me: "I bought some nice toys for Sin...oh yeah..."

Sin: (wagging tail and smiling that doggy smile):
posted by Wanting at 12:31 AM

 

I GOT HIM!! HE'S TEN WEEKS OLD, HIS NAME IS SIN, AND HE'S A SWEETIE!!! 
posted by Wanting at 9:37 PM

 
Doesn't matter whether you feel this war is a good thing or a bad thing...think about how this family feels..

I got this in my email from the Soldiers' Angels ...

Subject: Prayer request " Prayer is the only way all..God Bless and be with Chad & Give Strength to his family In Jesus Christ Name I Pray"

I received this today and am passing along. Please pass to anyone else you know who believes in the power of prayer.

Urgent Prayer Request From: Vicky Field
Subject: My son has been shot in Falujah. I wanted to get everyone to pray for my son Chad. Today, Sunday, I got a call from the Army that my son had been shot in the head. I am asking for all your prayers. He was in a Humvee going through Falujah fighting and a gang of militia fighters fired on the Humvee and hit Chad in the head. The driver got him out of the city and took him to Baghdad. He was in fatal condition, but now has been upgraded to stable critical. His dad and I are on standby to fly to Washington then on to Germany as soon as the military calls us to go. The Army is trying to stabilize him enough to fly to Germany and at that time we will leave.. Please pray that my son will not have brain damage and that he will be restored and healed by the blood of Jesus, and the grace of God. I ask for you to pass this prayer request on so there will be many prayer warriors praying for him. Thank you so much. God Bless,Vicky Field Granbury,Texas

Please pray for this young soldier and please pass this request along to those who will pray for him!
posted by Wanting at 4:45 PM

 

here's my buddy, old and gray.... 
posted by Wanting at 3:50 PM

 
...I just did a weird thing. Some of you may think I'm ignorant, but I've been called worse.

...I emailed a relief group down in New Orleans that is helping with the animals down there. Now I know I saw somewhere that they were asking for some people to possibly foster an animal or two. You guessed it. I said I could drive down on a weekend and help with some, bring them back here until they're owners could have them. I would need to rent something with a back set (more like a durango or a mini van).

...now I know that these people are probably laughing their asses off as soon as they see my email. But there are supposed to be 500 refugees coming to Peoria soon. If I'm willing to pick them up, why not?

...everyone knows that people get the help before the animals do. The aquarium down there is wiped out, I heard. The shit they are dumping out to drain the city is killing all the marine life down there (bet ya won't be eating any shrimp or lobster from down around there for awhile). Jack went down to help...he's a cop...he knows what to do...Norm is going down there...he works to fight the diseases that are showing up already. I can't do any of that...I'm better with the animals. Besides, I doubt I'll even hear from anyone, much less be told to "come down, we got a bunch..."

..so...anyone want to go with me?
posted by Wanting at 2:29 PM

 
Seamus posted about a blog that is written by someone who is in New Orleans right now. You might want to go check it out...he posts all the time about what he's seeing....

Thank you, Seamus....



posted by Wanting at 11:31 AM

 
...so now some people in New Orleans have guns...some are raping...many are looting...

...looting for food and water is expected. But for televisions and such...shoes...appliances?

...this is where sterilization should be used...losers can't breed...people who steel for their own enjoyment because others are dying or hurt or missing and have no way to defend themselves...as bad as the garbage that's floating in the streets.

...if you steal from me after I've been hurt...because you can...you are a piece of shit...

...if you rape someone because you can get away with it...you're garbage...

...if you intentionally hurt anyone, especially when they are not able to defend themselves...you're trash...white, black, whatever color you are...

...now everyone go to Jack's blog and wish him luck...he's going down to help..go to Norm's...he's going down to help, too...one is a cop, the other works in the health field...so we all know pretty much what they'll have to deal with when they get there...even though people were warned and they decided to stay...causing other people to risk their lives to help them...these guys are going down to help...

...it's ironic that when something like this happens, the good and the bad both come out...thank God there are more good than bad...
posted by Wanting at 6:13 PM

 
...the news lately is pretty depressing. Bad enough about soldiers in Iraq that seem to be killed everyday, but the problem in New Orleans is starting to sound like some movies I've seen.

...everyone should go to Jack's blog...starting Tuesday he had some interesting things to say. I agree with him. Now he's on his way down there to try and help. I hope he's careful and stays safe.

...Norm is off to try and help with the health problems that are popping up...let's all keep our fingers crossed for both of them...no, for EVERYONE who's trying to help.

...now don't get me wrong, I don't like all the human misery and suffering...but I always do this when stuff like this happens; I worry about all the animals in the city. If a person will hurt another just for the pleasure of it, imagine what the'd do to an animal.

...I hate this shit.
posted by Wanting at 3:23 PM

 

of course, the two of them together will be Rocky and Bullwinkle... 
posted by Wanting at 9:00 PM

 

...and his name will be Sin... 
posted by Wanting at 8:59 PM

 

“Books and ideas are the most effective weapons against intolerance and ignorance.”—Lyndon Baines Johnson

...if you're interested and want to see what some people want to tell you what and what not to read, go here.......

www.ala.org/bbooks

“Without Freedom of Thought, there can be no such Thing as Wisdom; and no such Thing as publick Liberty, without Freedom of Speech.”—Benjamin Franklin

“Restriction of free thought and free speech is the most dangerous of all subversions. It is the one un-American act that could most easily defeat us."—Supreme Court Justice William O. Douglas, "The One Un-American Act." Nieman Reports, vol. 7, no. 1 (Jan. 1953): p. 20.

posted by Wanting at 8:37 PM

 
...I was right about my dad...he called the other day to tell me what gas mileage he got on his truck when he drove back down to Georgia. Going on and on about how ethanol is better (that's what they make where I'll be working) on the gas mileage. I had to tell him I was in the middle of something to get him off the phone.

...ten bucks says I'll be getting a call from his wife about him next week, because that's when I start my new job and THAT's when he did it the last time, during a new job.

...anybody want to wager something? I pick Tuesday evening.
posted by Wanting at 7:34 PM

 
...yeah, I "rocked out"...it's all silver...nice stereo pkg with the speakers on the roll bar...power steering power brakes cruise and air bags...and air conditioning....in a Jeep...I had the top off and the air conditioning going...how presumptious is that?

...unfortunately, I didn't buy it. I wanted to buy it...I tried to buy it...but they were only going to give me 7500 for my truck...I may be crazy, but I'm not a total fool.

...so I drove it for a few hours (the dealer let me take this thing out of the show room and told me to be back by 5...). I got it out of my system...for now...
posted by Wanting at 4:19 PM

 

...guess what I did Saturday.... 
posted by Wanting at 4:18 PM

 

..that's a little more like it.. 
posted by Wanting at 9:48 PM

 

...when they build a franchise of restaurants with guys in chaps...serving ME....then I'll order some wings...yeah, I know...you go for the hot wings... 
posted by Wanting at 9:33 PM

 

..so when IS this damn sequal coming out? 
posted by Wanting at 9:28 PM

 

Just in case you missed it the last time and because I woke up with a headache and didn't go back to bed, this is my truck...except it's not 4-wheel drive and it doesn't have the black fender thingies.. 
posted by Wanting at 7:26 AM

 

...it's a sad state of affairs when sock puppets are put into dryers...I loved this guy (I have one) and he is NOT the reason they went out of business.... 
posted by Wanting at 10:11 PM

 
...and now for something completely........

less sad...

posted by Wanting at 10:07 PM

 
...I don't know the whole story...moving the Jews out of their homes...isn't this supposed to be a holy land?

...I don't understand hate. I'm not saying I haven't felt it...I have...and some of it righteously so (at least I think so). But how can you hate a people...a whole race...because of color, religion, status, whatever?

...to those who hate...go away...we don't need you here. Go off to some remote place and live together so you can wallow together in your stupidity. Keep to yourselves. And please, take precautions...birth control is needed...because you shouldn't breed. Sex is all you need. Maybe then you'll get a glimpse of some kind of humanity in yourselves, but please don't breed.
posted by Wanting at 11:46 PM

 

...This is what hate does...is it me, or is that man crying? See the other men's faces? They seem sad...embarrassed... 
posted by Wanting at 11:44 PM

 
...the other day I was ranting about how people seemed to be bothered by the fact that I was sick a while back. It seems funny, but the ones I did tell didn't like it, and the ones I didn't tell at that time (my friends) got pissed because I didn't tell them.

...the ones who were rude about it, as if I was some disease carrying parasite, apparently don't realize that that kind of bullshit hurts. It's not the fact that I needed their pity. I hate pity. But the look that would come over their face...and they would either want to hear all about it, or couldn't get away fast enough.

...my friends were and still are great. I guess that proves I am loved, and by all the right people.

...one of the things they do to you before you start your treatments is a bone marrow test, to see if you have any cancer there. If any of you know what it entails, then you know how horrific it is.

...they take a needle, (I'm not quite sure how long it was because I didn't want to know) and they pierce your skin, pushing it in until they get to the bone. Then they have to pierce that enough to get some marrow on a little hook at the end of the needle, then pull it back and out with a sample for the lab.

...for me, the required area of entry was my hip, both of them. I had to lay on my stomach, expose my ass and let the doctor work his magic.

...the day he consulted me, he suggested we do it then. I would just need a local of novicaine, it would only take a few minutes, and I could go home.

...I had just been told the day before what was wrong with me. I had Hodgkins...lymphatic cancer...and I was scared shitless. I heard it was curable, but then he told me I had an 80 something chance of being cured. Which meant, sometimes it's not.

...I agreed to let him do the procedure, and I was taken into a treatment room, told to lie down (after I pulled my pants and underwear down enough to reveal both buttocks) and I was given a couple of shots of novicaine. He left the room, and the nurse was nice enough to answer any questions I had.

...I don't really remember what I asked, but I did learn that this could be painful. She said she would be right there as he did it, and I could hold her hand and squeeze as hard as I wanted. She also told me that some people could handle it and some people couldn't. But she would not let go of me.

...I was getting even more nervous now. Soon the doctor came back in and made sure I was numb, took the needle...and pushed.

...I really couldn't feel it, just like when I went to the dentist (not to mention it was my ass...) he would tell me what he was doing...that I would feel pressure...and that when he got to my hip bone...more pressure.

...I started crying, being the wimp I was, but when he got to that point, I felt more than pressure.

...it's very hard to explain what the pain felt like. I never felt anything so bad before or after.

...the nurse talked to me, trying to soothe me, calm me down. She told me to squeeze, just squeeze her hand...that I couldn't hurt her. I had to fight to keep from crying out, and when he hit the needle with something to push it in farther, I had to fight to keep from screaming.

...that's when I started begging. I said I didn't want to do this anymore, that I wanted to take the sedative that he talked about. I begged him to stop. Literally begged. He seemed to make an exasperated sound of impatience, and suddenly, finally, the needle was out.

...he told me we would need to make an appointment for the next week, pulling his gloves off as I lay there crying like I'd just been shot, and walked out, leaving the nurse to help me up and collect myself. She was very nice to me, telling me it would be better if I had the sedative, giving me a box of kleenex and trying to make me feel better. She asked me if I needed help with my clothes, and even though I was shaking so hard, almost violently, I told her I was fine. Luckily she left the room, and I hid my face in my hands as I started crying again. I didn't want to feel sorry for myself, but I had no idea what I was going to do.

...it took me a few minutes to get myself together enough to walk out of there, and I remember a man sitting in the waiting room, looking up at me. He seemed surprised all of a sudden. I'd never seen him before, but then I realized by the way he watched me...he looked scared...that I must have looked even worse.
posted by Wanting at 4:22 PM

 
...can you believe this? I've been flagged. I have no idea what that means exactly, but it's a bit nerve wrecking.

..anyone remember Hitler? He banned books and then burned them. There's a banned book list out there...with such titles as Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and the Holy Bible. Scary.

...when I worked at the book store, a major pet peeve of mine was censors. You don't censor books, because it's immoral. If you want your kids to stay away from that stuff, then you need to talk to him and maybe watch him a bit closer. Stop leaving him alone all the time with no structure or responsibility, then bitch when someone tries to tell you he's been peeking in the girls' locker room, or talking back to his teacher.

...and by the way, D &D and Magic...just a game you gomer. Not the devil's spawn. A game. It's not the game's fault you have no social skills and you're slowly turning into a sociopath. If your kid goes off the deep end and hurts or kills people, don't complain it was all those games he used to play. Playboy doesn't turn him into Chester Molester. Oh, if you happen to be gay, that has nothing to do with Chester, either. Don't be stupid. If you must be homophobic, keep it to your self. You just sound even more stupid.

...if your kid does something bad, it's because he is bad.

...and one more thing...all you trailor trash hillbillies...stop giving us a bad name. My mom's from Mississippi...enough said there. I'm not ashamed I come from hillbilly roots...trailer trash...rednecks...but some of you guys are really starting to embarrass us.

...whatever you do, don't get on Jerry Springer.
posted by Wanting at 11:35 PM

 
...I think my dad is on his way to another "situation."

...when he called the other day, he was either...1)hard of hearing, 2)tired and a little confused because of it, or 3)going off his meds and confused because of it.

...I have no idea how long it takes him to go off completely. He seems to get to a point where he thinks he doesn't need them because he's feeling good. He also decides it's ok to drink the alcohol he was told NOT to drink. I think the thing that is keeping him from being jumped is the fact they think he's crazy.

...I guess you could say he is.

This is what he does...

1)The thoughts you ponder when you think things through in your mind...he talks about outloud. Almost discussing things...but not to someone...just himself....to the point that he may get upset.
2)He's going to get a job at NASA or somewhere where he can work/fly fighter planes or rockets. He then tells you anything you may never want to know about them.
3)He talks incessantly, non-stop, won't-eat-a-bite-of-food all the while.
4)He buys stuff. Last thing he bought was a new truck at the Toyota dealership in Alpharetta, Georgia. When we called the guy to tell him dad was a little altered when he bought it, the fucker that sold it to him said his old truck was already cleaned and spoken for. TWO DAYS LATER.
5)He won't shower. No need to explain.
6)He gets irritable when confronted about all of this, at times he seems violent, but the worse he's done is slapped a pill out of my hand that I tried to get him to take while the county mental health assessor (I can't remember what else to call him) was trying to decide to send him to the hospital or not. When he kept yelling he would burn the house down, cops were called. Luckily he went voluntarily.***

...but of course, he has to volunteer to be put in a hospital in Bloomington or wherever they can find...they shut down Zeller's in Peoria, Pekin Hospital's ward (not that they were any good) and I don't think Methodist has one anymore.

...then there's the wife. She never calls me until dad has disappeared for three days or he is driving her crazy...blah, blah, blah. I need to ask a lawyer how responsible she is. I get the feeling that one day she'll just leave him.

IF ANYONE KNOWS A LAWYER THAT WOULD GIVE ME INFO...PLEASE HELP ME.

...if anyone knows someone who suffers from some mental disease, you know what I'm talking about.

***According to my doctor, I haven't inherited it, it would have shown up by now. So those of you that were wondering....whew...
posted by Wanting at 7:28 PM

 
...I have come to realize over the past few months, that certain people, for whatever reason, have some sort of averse reaction to my having been sick.

...Let's see...it wasn't catching...it was actually curable...it wasn't anything that would cause mental illiness (or at least cause me any more mental problems than I already had...uness you count the stress and fear and all that shit that comes with being ill)...it only affected my work when I was sick and too tired to hardly move. But they always knew when and would let me handle it w/o a problem.

...SO...if you are one of those people that gets that sudden look on their face when someone tells you they had a serious illness...or worse yet...when they tell you they have a serious illness...and you just can't handle it....

FUCK OFF.

You're not wanted here.
posted by Wanting at 6:23 PM

 
...oh, by the way...I GOT THE JOB!!!
posted by Wanting at 3:17 AM

 

These are the guys who are getting shot at every day. So be grateful. No matter what you feel about all the shit in the world. 
posted by Wanting at 3:13 AM

 

This is the soldier I support...the guy on the right. His name is Nicholas Dumond and he's a "ground communication organizational repairman." He's a Marine Cpl, and I am very thankful for he and his friends, Reeves (in the middle) and Young. 
posted by Wanting at 3:11 AM

 

...I like him, too... 
posted by Wanting at 9:34 PM

 

...this guy could scare you just by speaking...he was fantastic.. 
posted by Wanting at 9:34 PM

 

...this is everybody's guilty pleasure... 
posted by Wanting at 9:33 PM

 

...this was another great one...I love the soundtrack... 
posted by Wanting at 9:32 PM

 

..if you've never seen this one...you have no idea what you're missing... 
posted by Wanting at 9:30 PM